After being on a short medical leave, I returned to church and what and awesome time in God I had. My bishop who is also a TRUE prophet of the Lord and everything he has ever uttered has come to pass, gave me a Word from the Lord: "Choose today who you are going to serve, God told me to tell you this is your final warning..." If you don't you will fall so deep that you will not be able to come back. If you do that the void that you feel, I will fill it, says the Lord..." Well I must tell you that in the midst of my tears, I was confused because I couldn't figure out what he was talking about. On my way home, I ask God to reveal to me what I was doing wrong. I went on line and researched the biblical scripture of "Choose ye this day whom you shall serve..." trying to get some inclination as to what God was asking of me, warning me about. I found that most studies also associate this scripture with "You cannot serve two master -God and man". So now the question is, what am I running from, and what I am trying to fill this emptiness with? Better yet, where am I empty? Have buried it so deep, occupied myself with "other gods" that I don't even know the root of my emptiness? I don't know what void I am trying to fill?
Why was He warning me again? (This was the second time Bishop had said this to me). It was almost verbatim. Here I am, fighting for my salvation, trying to get back to that place of relationship with God, striving to be a woman after God's heart, and then, this prophetic word hit me like a ton of bricks. I was restless in my sleep all night. Even as I write this blog, I am still trying to find meaning. What Daddy? Where have I replaced you? and with what? who? This Christ walk almost seems hopeless. Still I fight to stay the course, for the race is not given to the swift, right?
I pray that God will reveal it to me...and soon.
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